Why does time have to stop when your heart is breaking? I wish there was a prescription you could take, just to ease the pain of your heart breaking apart inside of your chest. Something at the pit of your stomach, just so it can catch your heart before it shatters into a million pieces. Anything to make you not weep at the sight of anything that you reminds you of him. I remember the pain of heartbreak, and I’m so sorry you’re feeling it now.
I know right now it seems never ending, that the pain is just never going to stop. But, I promise you it will. I know you’ve probably already been begging for someone to take away the suffering you’re enduring and have already switched your pillow to the other side only soon to find you’ve soaked your entire pillow in tears that you don’t even know how are still coming out. It’s okay to grieve, it’s okay to miss them. But, don’t let your heart be guarded in a way you can’t experience love to the fullest.
I understand why you’d want to put walls up surrounding your heart, who in the world would want to feel heart break like that again. Believe it or not, there will be a time you love again. After my heart break I was sure I was going to be alone forever and I was simply unloveable. It wasn’t until after I realized how guarded I was how unfair to me it was to not be accepting of other loves. If you keep your walls up, you won’t be able to feel the butterflies from a sweet text message. There will be many times that you smile only for it to fade completely assuming you already know the outcome. You won’t be able to enjoy the moments of falling in love all over again. I can’t guarantee you that your heart won’t break again, but if you don’t try you will never be able to experience the wonderful things love has to offer.
Everyone is worthy of love and although the ending of a relationship is nearly always painful it doesn’t mean that you should cut yourself off from potential relationships in fear of pain. Pain is envitable, whether that be with heartbreak or the loss of someone you love. It’s going to come and go. When you find the one that you want to spend the rest of your life with, you tend to look back at all your painful heartbreaks leading up to where you’re at now knowing you’d do it all over again if it meant you get to live the life with the person who’s with you today. That’s something you should always remember. Heartbreak is not forever, but the person you find at the end of it, will be.
“Previously published by Thought Catalog at https://thoughtcatalog.com.”